Confidence is broken
Monday, February 6
On Friday, (over IM, no less) I was telling her how much I missed her (especially now that she's been here). She started telling me how I just need to get out more. I started getting a little annoyed because she wasn't picking up on the fact that I'm not just lonely, I missed HER.
After some back and forth, she was asking me why I don't/haven't dated (like it's a choice). I finally admitted to her that I always thought we were building to something all this time. Apparently, I was wrong. I guess we'll just be friends. I hope she knows I wouldn't give up what we've built all these years, but I would also jump at the chance for something more, and I can't pretend there's not something else in my heart for her just because she lives 350 miles away, and happens to be with someone.
